Summer showed up in the city in a big way. The days of infernal subway stops and spontaneous human combustion are here. And it’s not even June. Or not quite yet. But soon enough. One down side of my new, more social life, is that I find myself far from of the air conditioned rooms of our apartment and on the streets of fire. I really have no idea how you normal people do it. My hat is off to you, but mostly just to keep my brains from boiling.
So… what’s up in my world… yes… that is a good question. First of all, it seems as though the real world is going to continue to intrude upon my private universe. Possibly for the rest of the summer. That’s both good and bad news. Good because I suddenly find myself with the financial freedom to do a lot more stuff, but it’s bad because I find myself scrambling for time to get things done.
Of course, this is what most struggling artists do. But it’s new territory for me. My first response to this reduced time frame was to freak out and pout. That got me nowhere. And really, I’m a bit too experienced to let a little thing like time management screw me over. The trick is to prioritize projects and only work on the areas which are truly interesting. That’s easier to say than do. My issue is that during the last five years, I’ve filled folder after folder with ideas which could be intriguing. Add to that the piles of art supplies to do this or that, and things become even more complicated.
In my foolish moments, usually occurring between the hours of 8 AM to 5 PM, I delude myself into thinking that I can do everything. Every good idea is worth pursuing and can be completed using whatever medium piques my interest. Of course, my reality is very different. Most of my ideas are only so-so and were conjured just to get me to a new place to conjure better ideas. They were never meant to become the sole focus of my attention. Most of my delusions as to how well I can use whatever medium at hand to kick serious ass with a current project are equally worthless. I do a handful of things extremely well, the rest… not so much. Sure, better than the stuff you’ll find on an average Google search, but I like to keep the bar a tad higher than that.
With all this in mind, I spent a good chunk of the holiday weekend clearing distractions from my studio. You’d think that would be easy, what with the clarity of my thinking, but no, it was not. The allure of this thing or that thing always trips me up. It’s only when I recall how much horrible nonsense I’ll have to make, I mean years of effort, with some of these materials that I sober up and create two piles: one for the stuff that does exactly what I need it to do and one filled with things which are essentially buyer’s remorse and need to be forgotten.
I’m hoping to enter into this short week with a better focused sense of purpose. If nothing else, I won’t be dabbling with things better left alone. But we’ll have to see how it goes. In theory, I’ll have something interesting to show you next Tuesday. Fingers crossed.